Have you ever thought about pain? What is the worst pain you have ever felt?
There are many different kinds of pain: physical pain (of the body), mental pain (sometimes called anguish), spiritual pain (a possible loss of faith), heartache pain (being severely hurt), but the deepest is soul pain.
There are different depths of pain in each instance. For example:
PHYSICAL PAIN - the minor pain of a paper cut, a bump causing a small bruise, or the clipping of a cuticle too close - to the pain of a severe bodily injury that results in many months of healing and rehabilitation.
MENTAL PAIN - from minor worry to total anguish over a severe situation or circumstance.
SPIRITUAL PAIN - when something happens to make you feel abandoned, forgotten, and hopeless no matter how much you believe or pray.
HEARTACHE PAIN - from the pain of a girl/boy-friend breakup, the loss of a friend after an argument or death, a divorce, to the death of a spouse/mother/father.
SOUL PAIN - is the deepest, longest lasting, gut-renching, all encompassing turmoil of them all. It includes and involves all of the above types of pain rolled into one, magnified an infinite number of times. It is a mother’s loss of an adult child.
Soul pain starts with heartache at the depth of feeling, the love of a child given freely. Love is started during pregnancy, blooms after birth, grows during the childhood and nurturing, to unfold into total devotion and unconditional love in the transition of teen into the adulthood phase and beyond. It continues to grow each day over time. For example, 38 years.
The loss just starts as heartache, then moves into total mental anguish as the reality sets in. The mental anguish also conjuncts spiritual pain as the wonder of it becomes more thought provoking. The heartache leading to mental anguish and spiritual pain can then lead to physical pain (such as being unable to get up, the loss of will to move limbs, etc.). Medical professionals have proven that physical pain can be manifested through or by heartache, mental anguish and/or spiritual pain.
The highest worldly plane of pain - is soul pain. It is the worst ache, pain or discomfort in the heart, mind, and body that reaches into every fiber of a being, down deep into the very soul of the human existence.
To me, the loss of a 39 year old son is the absolute epitome of soul pain. To have a very close mother/son bond that grew stronger over time, to have that bond destroyed - is soul pain. It is like attending its funeral, the death of the bond, the relationship, the mother-son connection being forever broken - is soul pain. It reaches into the depth of your being and rips it apart, shredding your heart, tearing your soul from your body.
Soul pain is the kind that never heals. It is forever with you, in your mind, in your heart, and in your being. The birth or bond is a reason for living. The destruction of the bond or the loss which causes the soul pain can be a reason for dying. My soul no longer lives. I will forever grieve.
